Mother Ayahuasca came right out and asked me: "Do you know what you need to do?" I responded: "Yes, I'm to heal myself so that I may heal others." She told me that our work this time was complete and that I could relax and enjoy the ceremony.
I understood that these guides were souls that had previously had many human experiences. I also understood that at some point, when my human work is complete—in this lifetime or another—that I will join them.
I kept asking Mother Ayahuasca if I was failing and doing the ceremony "wrong." I asked for her help. I was so tired. I tried to stay awake and not lay down. I so badly just wanted the ceremony to end and to go to bed.
We all sat outside in two circles. There were 16 people in our retreat group plus most of the support staff joined us. We were each armed with a bucket, an empty glass, and two 2.5L bottles of water. You could feel everyone's nerves...